Ch-ch-Changes

It is always a struggle for me to talk about personal items. I'm naturally a private person, but in order to present a fuller, authentic version of myself, I'm working on talking a little more realistically here. I love shiny, happy blogging, but the truth is those aren't the blogs I like best and I'm working to make my blog the best version it can be. Don't worry, we're still going to talk about lipstick, cake, and pretty stuff, it's just that sometimes we'll also acknowledge, you know, life and stuff.
So here goes....

I didn't post anything yesterday because, to tell you the truth, I was sort of sad. I'm a very fortunate person to not only like the people I work with, but to really like them. I think this is a nice thing, but it also means when one of them leaves, I feel sad. My friend is leaving the office today and we had her going away party yesterday. While I'm excited for her and everything, the truth is that I got pretty bummed. It was a confluence of so many things going on right now that equaled me tearing up in my office. In the grander scheme, I know there are so many things that will change for me over the next year or so and I'm sort of struggling with it. As if to put an exclamation point on all the changes happening, my diploma for my Master's was sitting on my kitchen table when I got home from working late last night. It was strange to see it sitting there, making  me feel for the first time that something so big is officially behind me. I mean they don't give you a diploma if you're not really done, right? This wasn't some cruel joke, right? I know being done is a good thing, I know people leaving your day to day doesn't  mean their leaving your life, I know that I've dealt with big changes before, but just right now I feel a little heavy with all of it. I'm working on my struggle with changes daily, but it is hard when there are so many uncertainties. I consider myself a fortunate person whose had a lot of her hard work pay off, (See: Earning Master's Degree while working full-time), but sometimes I think this also makes me think I can control everything and I can't. Anyway, that's all I really know how to say on that. I'm still working through so much of this in my mind, that it felt strange, but good to be honest about this struggle.